My love

Holiday back at Nimes was a bad one. Had a bad fight with Jb once again and every time we quarrel, it will always be the same subject;his 2 daughters. I mean I dun mind he having 2 daughter, but I think it is time he should let something go, like no "caring" for them so much. I know he feel guilty to divorced and thus not giving the children a happy home but it doesn't mean that he have to give in to his daughter everytime. Like buying things for them, shutting his mouth everytime his daughter talk back to him. I mean I will not allow my child to talk to me in sure a disrespectful way. I told him I will have a strict education for my child. The society here is a mess. The government does not care about the youngster. Leaving them rot like hell. What kind of society is this. Anyway, I will not care for him so much now as he told me that he cant change for me. So I guess I'm not going to change for him too. We can see what happen. He's going to have a new family now but I guess he is tired... Which makes sad that it's him who wanted me to have a baby for him, but now he is acting like a jerk. I wonder how he n his ex were before. He doesn't care about her? Well, I guess so and I guess she doesn't care about him too. As long as Jb gave her the money and she is happy. Why married her then since he doesn't want to in the first place. Was he obsessed by her then? Anyway, she is a very materialistic woman. She can do anything for money even if it is to kill someone, she will do it for the sake of money. Well, I dun know how to say this to Jb, but he can never understand my feelings and thoughts. He will never come and visit this website. I can write what I feel what I think. I believe I feel more freedom here... I feel like crying when I think of our relationship... Somehow, it's not the same as last time, something is missing somewhere... Hope we will get better as time goes by and when our baby is born, we can have a closer relationship.