Me as the future parent

last week, I had the biggest and toughest argument with Jb. I hope we will not argue like this anymore... After talking to him, we decided to keep the baby. I mean he wanted to keep the baby. But that's him, if I point out something bad, he will want to do the things right... But somehow, this make it worse. I told him we gonna have a hard time in the future bcs of our baby. I mean, who nv have hard time looking after ur own child. But he thought that I'm not ready to be a mom and insist that he is ready to be a dad. I was devastated. Deep down in my heart, I am ready to be a mom and I want to have this child bcs it is from him and I dun wan us to make a mistake. At first, we decided to abort it but after, we said that we cant do it as this is so unfair to the child. I want to bring this child into this world. A few days back, I went to the doc with my mom and I've got a scan.

Sadly, we cant see the fetus yet. Doc said we have to wait mayb 2 more weeks. Well, guess that Jb will be happy to see the baby by then. Few days ago, we named him Sesame now we name him red bean, cos of the size he is now. I am really glad that my family are so happy abt this and a new member are coming. I hope this can also bring the family bond close then before.

Well, now I have a totally different life. Building a family of my own, having to look after my kids, watching him/her grow... I dun mind if its a boy or girl. But I know Jb wish to have a boy but he still wouldn't mind abt the sexes. I told him, if its a girl, at least she can help to look after the sis or bro in the future whereas if its a boy, he might b bullying the younger siblings. It will b funny to see them playing and bullying each other though sometimes it can be a real headache, but it is the fun part being a parent. Giving them the best education. Teaching them how to b a better person, this is the job of the parent. I hope we can do a gd job in teaching our child, giving them the love and need they wan. Well, this is my goal I guess. It is every parent's hope to see their kids growing and b a gd soul leading a normal life.

My new blog...

Well, here i am having a new blog. I'm just wondering if i really have so much stuff to talk abt... This blog were based on the same theme like the other blog which i had earlier; my life, my love, my thinking... based on the things that are happening to me, and my thoughts.

I will recorded everything that happen in my present life, be it love or even a small incident that will reflect my thinking and thus provocated my opinion. I will put it in this blog to allow everyone to have a glance of what's happening to me in my life.

Eventful life is what makes a life beautiful and memorable. On the up-coming days, i hope i will have some beautiful memories to share it with u people. Be it joyful events or unplesant events, the world is still rotating and changing every now and then. So i hope everyone who read my blog will maybe some day, agree with my opinions and hopefully it can change their individual life somehow into a more beautiful one..