my dear grandfather

My ah gong, at sure a old age, hoping to have his children to love him and show him concern. Hoping nothing from them but juz pure love. Didn't even want to bother his children but due to several strokes during the past, he had to depend on his children to look after him. During all these years, some showed great care n concern while some, not being filial to him all along.

Last night, ah gong was admitted into the hospital again. He fell down several times during the last week where he was staying at Teck Whye home. There are many bruises and the most severe injury are the fall on last Sunday morning when we went over to pray our late grandma. He fell in the morning before everyone was there. But er jiu, said nothing to us, perhaps maybe he's scare that he might get into trouble!!! This fall, lead to a minor stroke. Worse scenario, he was admitted into hospital last august due another stroke. That was his 4th time getting a stroke. Now, just a fall and lead him to another stroke again.

Lucky we found that earlier and admit him to the hospital in time. But this incident, really frightens the couple( my er jiu) . They have not been very filial to ah gong. Even now, i dun think i want to call them anymore when we have gathering. They show no respect for ah gong means they show no respect for themselves. Thus, no point respecting them!

This couple have been very ridiculous and as the year pass, they became hopeless. They rather spend money on luxury goods then to pay for the medical for my ah gong. Last week, ah gong finally get to go back to his home at Teck Whye after staying at xiao jiu's house. Although xiao jiu wants him to stay there a lot but ah gong still feels that Teck Whye is his home. Well, that's the old folks, rather die at home then outside. Xiao jiu would like so much that one day ah gong will say he wants to stay with him. After sending ah gong to xiao jiu house last month, the situation got worse. The couple without any warning or mentioning, send ah gong to xiao jiu house. Da jiu had his house warming last month and the couple brought ah gong there thinking that ah gong will go to xiao jiu house n stay. Just before going back, the couple just told xiao jiu that they are going to let ah gong with him for one month and that is the way it suppose to be. Alternative taking care of ah gong. Feeling like ah gong was a ball, being kick here and there. Everyone of us felt sorry for ah gong and angry with the couple.

That month during his stay at xiao jiu house, ah gong was sent for therapy 3 times a week. From immobility to being able to walk with the help of walking sticks. He really recover during this time. But last week, after going back to Teck Whye till today, from having the ability to walk with the help of his walking stick to ending up in the hospital. I dun know how many times he had fell for the last past week. But bruises can be seen on both his knees and his arms. Huge black bruises and yet, the couple knows that and said nothing. They only said he fell but added that he is all right. NONSENSE!!! Well, sunday fell cause him to have a minor stroke becos that fell falls on his head. Till today, he's complaining having headaches.

Feeling scare, the couple? I dun think so! Perhaps scare that they might have law suit. WHY? Well, simple, they got last night becos er yi brought him to hospital as they know he fell down last sunday and couldn't walk properly. Suspecting that he might have another stroke. They rush to the A&E, the couple, feeling "guilty" went with them to check what happen. Thinking that maybe they can show that they care for ah gong too so that no one will push the responsibility to them. Upon reaching there, the couple, with both of their hand folded, standing there looking as if it is none of their business.(Written on 21 Nov) to be continue...

A bunch of pigs living above my flat!!!

As you know, living in Singapore is consider to be a piece of art. Why? Becos, you have to be considerate and be tolerances enough to live harmoniously together. Singapore is a small island thus, there is no space for us to build huge house with a private land... All we have is flats, high-rise buildings. Due to the limited space, not a lot of bungalows are available if they are suppose to be very expensive n only the rich can afford to stay in bungalows or semi-detached houses

Therefore, living under one roof is a piece of art as we learn how to be considerate to others and we have to tolerate others' disturbances. Sometimes, it seems harder enough to do it. If one is inconsiderate and making lots/tons of noises, they will disturb others and bring inconveniences. Whether it's day or night, if you have to make some work, i believe at least what you can do is to tell everyone around your flat that you will be making some noises as you will be working in your flat. Simple courtesy and yet, the bunch of pigs living above my flat knows nothing abt this. Not to be rude, but they are showing us no respect. Uncle once complaint to them but yet they are still doing the same things ignoring the complaints. Having kids is not an easy task, but you shouldn't let them do whatever they want as this can cause so many disturbances to the others. What kind of parents are they. At least i will not let my Chelsea disturb others as i dun like to be disturb. And i hate to make a scence in the public.

Not to be racist or what, but i believe they are Koreans and i know that Koreans are really noisy and inconsiderate people. Well, they are not the worse, but you know living in Singapore, we have a high living standard, thus, a little noisy can cause us tons of problems and troubles. How on earth can you let your child play marbles at home and worse, let them threw it onto the floor... Isn't it stupid? I would suggest they buy some soft play mat for the children so that they will not disturb us! I was wondering what they were doing, sounds like they were killing people up there. And especially my room, they have been doing things and making dins.

I hope they can move away and stop disturbing others. Shhh....

Sick & tired...

Sick and tired of my life... Sick and tired of having to do nothing... sick of having the baby in my stomach.. sick of having no career... sick of having no goals... sick oof having to think for others... sick of having to complain... sick of having to tolerate everyone's anger... sick of having to wait for the money... sick of having to take JB's money... sick of my life... sick of everything... sick of myself... fuck life... fuck doing nothing...