Mom & uncle

Finally mom and uncle are a happy couple now. They have reunited and happily ever after again. Well, hope they will fight less and be more happy with each other. Anyway, I'm happy to see them getting along well now. Hope everyone will be so happy and may all the problems be solved sooner and living happily again.

Life is a roller coaster, live life to the fullest!

My pregnancy

This is me, taken when I was 4 months pregnant!

Talking about my pregnancy, I think I'm rather smooth till now. Perhaps i might encounter any problems in the next coming months. But if I'm ask which is the most difficult part for me to handle during pregnancy, I think it should be my mood. Sometimes I woke up and feeling good but i can have my mood swing in juz a minute after. It was rather hard to control those undesirable mood swing. You can just thinking of blasting everything out and make a big fuss about nothing.

Every time when I have those emotional tortures, I yearn for crying and locking myself alone in the room. But I know i just have to control those out bust and do something to make myself feeling better. Every time when I had these feelings, i just feel like going for a run and I know this is inappropriate for me to do it during pregnancy. Instead of jogging, I turn to yoga and swimming. Unfortunately, I miss all my swimming schedule this weeks due either raining or going out. I must force myself to go swimming, at least this can make me feel better and more confidence when it comes to labour.

These few days, I feel my craving for food has slightly increase and I know I have to break down my meals into 5 small meals instead of 3 large meals. But normally, I have my 3 large meals and eating nothing in between. This is a habit for a long time. If i were to eat, I know i will crave on snacks like sweets, crackers or chocolate. I think this is another big problem for me but i have to control my eating habit and not eating so full every meal.

Pregnancy can be difficult as you are restricted to many things such as food and exercise. Vigorous exercise are not meant for me now and food that are harmful are not to be taken into consideration too. I felt restricted but perhaps this is what we called 'Mother love'. For the sake of our baby, we will not take anything which are meant to be harmful to the baby into consideration.

After all, mother is very 'protective' to their children...

心痛。。。

Today's a fine sunny plus a little hazy day. Wake up by mom to have my breakfast. She bought me some chicken feet noodle. Something which I felt sad about is uncle and mom. These few days they have no been talking to each other much. Seem like they had a fight or something. They talked to each other in an strictly tone. Seems like they dun wan to talk to each other. I always enjoyed seeing them joking and playing with each other. But these few days, they have been acting strangely.

Both are being so stubborn especially my mom becos once uncle calms down, he will talk to mom but mom still will not want to talk to him and would angry with him for a few more days. I think they both should really think about each other's feelings and try to understand each other. Living together is not an easy task, thus, understanding is important.

Why are they behaving like this? Often when I quarrel with JB, we will cool down very fast and not drag it till the next day. But sometimes, I hope people can really treasure the time they had with each other and not regarding it till the last minutes which often is the case.

Loving each other means giving in and giving out. Give in ur pride sometimes and forgive. Giving the love out to the one you love and treasure the moment you had together. This is also make your life a better one as well as for the others.

Hope they will stop the 'COLD WAR' and start to love each other again.

LIFE!

Life. What is your definition of life? I would like to think that Life Is Free & Easy. I have heard so many different stories from many people. Interesting and fascinating stories they are. But, how would you like to look at life? What is your concept of life?

Some people think that they have had a terrible life while some thinks that their life is full of beautiful meanings. Sometimes, a small mistake that we made will set us thinking of the path one takes. Just because of one mistake doesn't mean that we have an awful life. If an individual make a mistake or took a wrong path, instead to blame themselves and crying out loud for having a terrible life, wouldn it make life easier if you think it in a positive way? For example, if you choose a wrong career, I would advise you to reconsider something. Do you prefer to continue the path that you had chosen or will you consider another job opportunity? Let’s think it in a negative way. You think that this is not your ideal job due to many reasons like your salary, benefits, environment, well, at the end of the day, who would you have blame? Of course you blame yourself, others or even the environment. You will keep blaming, complaints about the miserable life you have. You will think that its too late to make changes. You dont change your concept of life, no intention of improving the situation. Well, of course, your life is sure a miserable one. On the other way, looking at things in a positive way. You know it is not your ideal job, either you change it or sometimes the environment doesnt allow it, then you will have to put in a little bit of effort by making yourself happier. Telling yourself that you have this job, many people dont. Think about how many millions of people in the whole world are jobless. People fighting for a job like yours. Lets narrow down the situation. You are unsatisfied with your current position, but have you ever wondering of having a different position within the company itself. Like changing a department, looking for a totally different opportunity to discover a whole new talent in you. Things will definitely turn out much better than you could ever think of.

Life is free and easy. You have the total freedom to choose what you want and its easy. Although choosing is easy there is another concern that is link to the problem discussed above. Another concern is human-to-human communication. Different people think differently. Ones have a different concept from another. Sometimes we think the same, agree on something but sometimes, we dont! Conflicts occur when we have a different point of view. Especially when we are living under one roof. Families and friends are the closest people to us. We build bonds between each other. But how do we build it? By communicating with each other. When it comes to relationship, there are two kinds of people. One of which is to give and the other is to take. To agree on something, both have to give in to each others concept and ideas and to accept the final decision. If both have the same idea, it is beautiful, but conflicts often occur when both do not agree on the same thing. It is saddening to see quarrels, fights or worse, death. If something went the wrong way for us, it can cause us a lot of problems. Our brain controls us. Subconsciously, we would overdoing the damage and make us lose something or someone important. Rational thinking is important especially during the critical moments. You wouldnt want to regret the things you did. That rush moment can cause you to regret for the rest of you life.

Life is all about communicating with one another by accepting each others way of living. Remember, you dont own others life but only yourself; you cant force an individual or a group of people to follow your concept. Because you dont own them and they dont belong to you. If one day you have regrets about the path you took, set yourself thinking of the time when you had decided to take this path. Why did you take it at the beginning? Is it a beautiful moment when you decided to walk this path or were you being force to take it? But think again, no one own you but only you yourself. Eh oui, ca, c'est la vie!

My uncle

Recently, I feel that uncle is not being happy at all. Everyday I can see only a long face from him. I dun know what kind of stress he has, but it is definitely not a good stress. He has been so unhappy. Sometimes I wonder if he hates us or he have other problems to think about. However, everyday I will see his sad face. I know he is having his menopause and that's why he is behaving like that. Sometimes I feel sad to see him having so many ache pain. It must be tough for him and my mom.

That day, mom told me something that makes me realize something important about him. She told me that everytime when our family come over to Guilin, he will not be happy becos he will always be the one buying the food and my mom will always be the one preparing the food alone. Not a single person would help her. I think that's true. Not even a thanks to him and my mom. He will always get so angry with mom for cooking alone that's why he is so upset everytime my family member comes.

I believe he thinks that we care nothing about him and we only enjoy the things he had like his money, spending his money is a right thing to do. But I hope he know that that is wrong. I want us to treat him like one of our family. Not to think that we only want to spend his money. I want to see him being happy with my mom. When I told him that day to be my witness, he is so happy the whole day. LOL!! I hope we can make him feel more comfortable with us and not think that we are just using him.

Honestly, I dun mind letting my kids call him 'ah gong' (Grandpa), and I'm sure he will be happy. Although my dad might not be happy but I know at least this is something we can repay uncle for being nice to my mom. I know we have been neglecting my dad and I hope I can do something to make him feel that we still love him.

I know this is a difficult situation but at least one of them understands, everyone will live harmoniously. I hope I can tell uncle that we do care for him and I know especially Fen and me, we always see him so sad and we tried to make him happy. Hope that one day, I will tell him that we do care for him and we want him to be happy just being with my mom.

I hope they can make a small trip this coming weekend with his friends so that he can have a change of environment and perhaps he will feel better and unstress himself. I hope we can make him more happy during these time and perhaps he will feel much better.

Lucky am I?

There are some arguments regarding marriage at a young age. Some think that it's a shame to get pregnant before you get married, while some vice verse. For me, I dun think its a shame. Depending on the situation itself. Whether you are capable of building a family or not. In my case, I think we are still be able to give our baby a good life if JB is working alone. But, I think it would be better for all of us if I am working as well. At least I can spend my own money, using my own money to buy some present for my JB and Chelsea.

But people like Lynn, who are afraid to get married becos she thinks that she or her future hubby might done something wrong to each other. Well, if she thinks that way, then I think she should give herself some time to think about it. If she is afraid of anything, she might lose a good man. I think cohabiting before marriage have nothing to do with divorce. Perhaps it has, as people tend to get bored by living with each other for a long time and ended up losing interest with each other. But the decision is up to you whether you can create something fresh for each other. Of cos, living with each other for a long time do get bored at times. But, are u willing to create more fun then boredom in your love life? Having a family doesn't limit your time with your partner. Its up to u whether or not to create the fun yourselves.

Talking about me, I consider myself very lucky. Having JB supporting me, it gives me a lot of freedom to do what I want. (of cos, not melting into temptation) But things like my studies or career. He had proven to me that he do support me during my school time, giving me the time and interest to do the stuff I need to do in school. Helping and understanding me in any ways. This is love I guess, supporting each other and indulge into their life, creating trust and building bonds.

What I've learnt from him is something that I will keep it in mind. Supporting your partner, giving full support! I am young and I have a lot to learn. But I am willing to learn. I think my life have advance much more than anyone I know. Having my first child at the age of 22. This gives me more satisfaction than having to go the normal ways like others did. Normally, you have to work and find your lifetime partner as your life goes on. But, I always choose the different path like others. I have my family first, then I concentrate on my career. I know some people will think that it is impossible to have a nice career once you have kids. Once again, I found that ridiculous. Like I said earlier on, having support from your partner is the greatest gift they can ever give you. Being a couple is like you are standing on a raft. If one gets lazy or the other puts in more effort, the raft will overturn. In the end, you sink. But if both support each other, telling each other never to give up, it warms your heart and you will be motivated to go on supporting the raft from overturning.

I build my family now, persuade my career after, this gives me a lot of time to concentrate on my career later on. But still, do you know how to manage your time well, once you have a family? How are you going to negotiate the time with your partner and who is responsible for the family itself? *Think...

Angry anyone?

Recently came back to Singapore and decided to give birth here. Going to stay here at home for a long time before going back to France. But, having seen a lot of things that makes me sad. Phyllis and Lynn always having their bad temper, often unhappy because of small things. Like that day, we were happily eating our dinner back at teck whye then because of ling accidentally tilt the fan to fen and the wind blew her hair, fen got angry or kind of irritated. Then ling for some reason, went back to her room looking unhappy and after to found out she was crying. Know that she might be feeling pressurized because of her condition that she has no work now or somehow, feeling sad for something. But hope that everyone is strong enough to pass any tests in life. No matter how well u think other people are, how well off they are, they might be suffering somewhere and u might not know that. Not all people are born with a good life. Everyone will complain about something in life. Even if u are born rich, doesn't mean that u are really happy in ur life.

Once again, I dun know y everyone is blaming themselves for everything. But sometimes, look at things in a different prospect, dun expect the things u wan will go the way u wan it. Sometimes, things happened juz because of communication. U dun communicate well, then things will not go the way u wan it to be.

This time coming back, I notice that things aint the way it used to be. Everyone is getting so nervous and this cause me to get so nervous too. Becos of a small thing, everyone gets nervous. WHY??? Can anyone explain to me? I guess it would be better for me to go back France and come back only for short holidays.

I cannot understand y people cannot treasure the time being together. Did anyone of us make any effort in putting the relationship together? What is holding u back? Jealousy, laziness or simply just ur character that makes u care for no one?

What happen to the bonds between us? I dun wan to get angry for no reason. But, how can I not be...